I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what I’m doing with my life. Not in my relationships, more along the lines of what I am supposed to be doing with my life.
What’s my purpose? What’s my brand? What’s my intention? What is my passion? Hell, I don’t know. Am I supposed to know that? My brand? Do I even have a brand? Do I need a brand?
I’m just little ‘ol me. I’m authentic. I’m energetic 51% of the time. I’m a woman, mom, wife, daughter, sister, friend and a really good lip syncer. But what does that amount to in the world of career, money, success and PURPOSE?
I’ve never gone after money, and when I have, I have failed miserably. I don’t want to manage anyone. The only ladder I want to climb is the one to the top of the slide on the playground. I’ve never desired to have a career, outside of dreams of being a sitcom or voiceover actress. But I’m getting older and I’m starting to think, what am I leavin’ here, on this earth? Seriously, what am I supposed to be doing???
As far as my biggest passion, I am truly passionate about helping my daughters grow to become all of the amazing things they want to be and contributing to this planet with kindness and love. Being a good parent is no joke, and it is the hardest, most wonderful, non-paying job I’ve ever had. I will always put a focus on motherhood, and I’m hopeful I’ll make a positive-ish impact on at least two lives.
With all that said, motherhood don’t pay the bills. And don’t even come at me with getting paid in hugs and kisses, you all know what I mean. Plus, am I being the best role model to my girls if I’m not living my best life? If I’m not utilizing every opportunity to its fullest potential? If every day I’m not hustling?
In all realness, I am hustling most days. I work my ass off. I do a thousand things from home to support my family, and pay my bills. I workout at least five days a week and cook like a sonofabitch. But what am I supposed to do next? Where will this journey lead me? Who will I meet and what is coming on the horizon? Is this all enough? Is this it?
What the hell is my purpose? And will I ever find it?
If you have any ideas, please, by all means, share your knowledge with me, I’d love to know.