Getting ready for an adventure is a lot of things. It’s exciting, it can be overwhelming and it definitely encourages my anxious self to come out and play.
But why do we get anxious? Is it the lack of control and the unknown? Is it because we will be out of our routines, even if we do like to mix things up? I’m no scientist, but I kinda believe in the fight or flight theory. I think I just get annoyed when every other minute I’m like “Fight!” oh wait no “Flight!”, hmmmmm I mean “why not fight?”, nah I’d rather “flight.” I swear I can talk myself out of, or into, almost anything. But why is it?
When I was in my twenties I literally had panic attacks due to anxiety. I’m still not sure why, but they were awful. Feels like you are dying. I even got rushed to the ER a couple of times. Luckily I was given an antihistamine shot and sent on my way. I never did get down to the bottom of why I was panicking. I mean, I had very little responsibility, I had just gotten out of college and was living the dream. So what the hell was I so anxious about?
As a parent though, it’s obvious why someone would be anxious all the time. Our hearts are running around outside of our bodies and we are just trying to keep them safe and alive…EVERY DAY FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES!!!! #nopressure
So when I was offered something extraordinary recently I jumped at the chance, and then I paused. Wait. What? But what are we doing? Where are we going? Who will watch my kids? How will it all work out? Will I regret it? Will it be the best adventure ever? SO. MANY. QUESTIONS.
Well, I still don’t know where I’m going, or what I’ll be doing, but I do know this, I’m going for it. The opportunity came to me for a reason. I asked the universe for something and almost immediately received an answer. I’m definitely going, but I’m not saying I won’t be a bit anxious about it. I’ll just have to trust that everyone will be ok, or even better than ok. I will believe we all come out of this experience stronger, braver and even more grateful than we were before…and I’ll bring some antihistamine with me, just in case. 😉